Life ....an update

So its late and I can't sleep so while reading other blogs I decide I should update my own.
That took a little more work than I had thought...lol I had to get a password change prompt sent to me and then some editing....but finally I am back in business!!! woo hoo!!

Ok, lots to update:
I believe the last time I updated I was giving a history on my family and everything thing that was going on. I was talking about how wonderful my family is and how we were shattered when we heard that my brother had brain cancer. well, my amazing brother went home to be with the Lord on May 5th, 2011. It has been by far the hardest thing that my family and I have ever gone through. We had a memorial service in Ohio where he lived and here in KC where he grew up. I planned a lot of the services and while I was stressed about getting everything perfect the truth is it was keeping me busy...distracted...I was looking for anything to help me stop thinking about how bad it hurt..even if it was just for a few moments. I was able, by the grace of God, to speak at both services and while that was so hard for me it was very special to honor Aaron in that way. My family and I are taking things day by day....trying not to dwell on the hard times and how hard the holidays will be....Just thinking about the fact that he is whole and with Christ. He will be in my heart forever and I'm sure gracing the pages of many of my posts!!!

In other news:
I moved to a new school this year and while I was a little nervous about that it has proved to be a very good move. I have met some sweet people and I love what I do everyday...not many people get to say that!!! : )
I am still in love, very much so, with my amazing boyfriend Bryan! He is so wonderful to me and a blessing that I do not deserve. We had fun this summer just enjoying spending time together...Anything we do is fun as long as we are together!!! :)
I am MOVING....YAY!!!! while I will miss my current roomies it is a God thing and I am very excited about it!!! Rene and I are great friends and I am excited for all our adventures...The house did get struck last weekend in the storm so little repairs but God has it all under control..

I think that is all I can think of at this late hour....I need to be sleeping as church, Bryan's family reunion lunch, and a carnival at our church tomorrow are all calling my name...

Goodnight blog world...I am glad to be back!!!

My family and the start of the unwelcome journey

I decided that an introduction of my family would be the best place to start.

I am blessed to have a wonderful mom( Connie) and dad(Steve) who were faithful and provided a God loving home. I also have the worlds best brother(Aaron). Sounds crazy I know and as I was growing up those words would have never come out of my mouth as my brother and I fought like normal siblings do, yet I always knew there was something special about him. My brother met and married his college sweetheart Ali who is a great addition to our family. They both live in Cleveland Ohio. I also have a fish named Joe Bonsai Won Ton Taco and a new puppy named Finley!!

I feel a bit a background information is in order. It started in September when Aaron began having headaches. At first my brother just assumed he was stressed and thought nothing of it. As the week went on and the headaches continued he called my mom and they both decided it best to go see a chiropractor as my family has a history of backs/necks being out of place and that is what he did. The chiropractor did a couple of treatments and by the next week the headaches were gone. My brother and our family were relieved and my parents went ahead with the scheduled October camping trip with them. It was while there in October(about 2 weeks later) that the headaches came back this time with flu like symptoms......so we all thought he has a virus. Upon my parents return I myself began to not feel well and we all thought well we are a sharing family and we just simply shared this virus....lol if only that were the case.

I have sat staring at the screen for about 20 min trying to find words to describe the day this unwelcome journey began and I, for once in my life, am speechless. It was a typical November day for me as I woke and began to get ready for work. I knew that my brother had been not feeling well and dealing with headaches off and on but I also knew a that it could take a while for the virus(which is what we all thought) to run its course. It should also be noted that my brother is a stubborn male and did not want to go back to the doctor even though he was not feeling better and what I did not know was that on that November morning my mom had called my brother to find that he was having trouble putting words together and told him either go to the hospital or I will drive 12 hours and take you myself. Well, my mom has a way of putting fear in us so my brother making a smart decision decided to go and it was then I got the first call...pray because Aaron is going to the ER, it was at that moment I got this erie feeling in the pit of my stomach that has yet to go away.

I tried my hardest not to worry all day as I was at that time a nanny and had children to take care of and decided to pray and see what the outcome would be. The day seemed to take forever and it felt like answers were never going to come, and then in one instant, devastation. My mom called me around 4pm to tell me that they had found a golf ball size tumor in my brother's brain and that an 8 hour operation was in order and I needed to get to Ohio right away........

I have to say this is harder for me to relive and write than I thought it would be so I am calling it quits for today. God is renewing my faith through all of this and for that I am thankful.

I have decided to end each post with these words :

Each day is a gift, a blessing from God. Tell everyone who means the world to you just that. Never hold back telling that co worker or friend of God's love and gift of salvation.

today I am thankful for life....both physical and the security I have of my eternal life with Christ.

In Christ

Reason for the blog

I have to admit that while I have been wanting to blog about my this crazy journey my family has been on for the past year for a while now but it was after watching Julie and Julia yesterday that I decided I was going to start blogging.

Now I know that my blog will not be as exciting as the blog on that movie nor will it ever become a movie, it is in fact a blog for me mostly. I will of course use it to keep people updated on my brother but I have felt for a long time now that I needed to write, what I was feeling, how things were going, just simply write!

I think for tonight this will be my post. I am tired...but I promise I will be on tomorrow and will begin blogging about life since November 4th 2009.